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Danny Cockerline ✵ 1960-1995


Name at birth:	Danny Cockerline
Date of birth:	30/09/60
Place of birth:	North Bay, Ontario, Canada
Date of death:	11/12/95
Place of death:	Toronto, Canada
Resting place:	Toronto, Canada
Submitted by:	Gerald Hannon (gerald.hannon@sympatico.ca)

With age comes innocence. That is why we need the succulent, corrupting young. That is why we have lost so much with the suicide of Danny Cockerline. He was just 35 years old, and had about him still the blatant fearlessness the world misunderstands and calls corruption.

He was a prostitute. A drug user. A porn star. He partied too loudly, too often and too hard, yet in those same devouring energies he found the will and means to carry on a political struggle that took him from the activism of the now defunct gay magazine The Body Politic to the fight for prostitutes’ rights to his role as pinup boy for the safer-sex campaigns of the age of AIDS.

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Timothy R. Cleeton ❀ Visitors & Flowers

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13 February 2024

Missing you

Suzanne E Marie

13 February 2018

Still remembered

Suzanne E Marie

17 April 2016

Reminded of a Corvair, 1974 xo

Hilary Comstock

20 January 1998

miss you more every day.

<gracie@aaaa.net>

3 November 1997

Hello Timothy,

You left the world much too young. I never knew you, but feel we must have been related somewhere along the line, as our surname is not a common one.

Rest In Peace.

Angela Cleeton <clead@albury.net.au>

1 May 1996

I am so sorry about the loss of your loved one. It is very difficult to lose someone so young. I never thought it would happen to me but did it stole my mom’s life. Cancer is everywhere and it will steal your life and ruin your family’s.

Frances M. Johnson <LEJH40A@prodigy.com>

Timothy R. Cleeton ✵ 1956-1996

Name at birth:    Timothy R. Cleeton 
Date of birth:    07/18/56 
Place of birth:   Denver, Colorado 
Date of death:    02/13/96 
Place of death:   Newton, Massachusetts 
Place of burial:  Mt. Auburn Cemetery, Cambridge, Massachusetts

Submitted by: Suzanne E. Marie (gracie@yvv.com)

A computer specialist, Tim passed away after a long battle with lung cancer. Survived by his parents Alan of Franklin, Ma, his mother Gloria of State College, Pa, his maternal grand-mother Theresa of Newton, Ma, his brother Glen of Newton, Ma, his sisters Deborah of State College, Pa, Victoria of Woonsocket, RI, and Sarah of Union, Conn. Also by his step-mother Marion of Franklin, Ma. Sincerely missed by a few close friends from who he was taken away from much too soon.

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Elaine Louise Cisney ❀ Visitors & Flowers

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“Doug Cisney” (dougc@aug.com)
07 March, 2003
With eternal love & remembrance!
Doug

Lorraine Prieto (lprieto@iu.net)
Tue, 20 Aug 1996

Deep pink carnations for you Elaine Cisney – they are probably my most favorite flowers. I came across this site by accident and cannot leave without leaving flowers to someone. I chose to visit a fellow Floridian and that is how I have chosen your name. Peace to you.

Elaine Louise Cisney ✵ 1920-1995

Name at birth:  	 Elaine Louise Hampton 
Date of birth:  	 November 6, 1920 
Place of birth:  	 Tyrone, Penn. USA 
Date of death:  	 March 12, 1995 
Place of death:  	 St. Augustine, FL. USA 
Place of burial:  	 St. Augustine, FL. USA

Submitted by: Douglas Cisney (fcmb@aug.com)

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William Scott Chattuais ❀ Visitors & Flowers

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“Vitor Martins Ferreira” (djvitorsp@hotmail.com)
14 January, 2003
“Rest in peace in the arms of God”
Que a paz de Deus esteja com você!
That the peace of God is with you!
¡Que la paz de Dios está con usted!
Que la paix de Dieu est avec vous!
Che la pace di Dio è con Lei!
Daß der Frieden von Gott mit Ihnen ist!

Robin Chapman (robin@rlca.net)
30 March, 2001
Your sweet little face reached out to my heart. You are a beautiful little angel!!!! God bless you sweet William!

“Donna Bogs” (sobbie@home.com)
15 August, 2000
My grandmother died when I was a very little girl. My parents told me if I wanted to send love to her in heaven, to blow a kiss in the breeze and the angels would take it to her. So here is a kiss in breeze for little William. Sounds silly I know but, I wish peace and comfort for his family.

“Rose Kounga” (milla@sprint.ca)
17 July, 2000
MY LITTLE ANGEL THIS IS FROM YOUR GRAND MOM ROSE FROM OTTAWA – CANADA – WITH ALL MY LOVE AND AFFECTIONS. BE NICE AND LET YOUR MOM KNOW THAT YOU ARE HAPPY WHERE YOU ARE.

“Catherine Harding” (c.harding@telus.net)
08 July, 2000
Love and prayers for the family of baby William.

William Scott Chattuais ✵ 1999-1999


Name at birth:	William S. Chattuais
Date of birth:	02/22/99
Place of birth:	Lille – France
Date of death:	06/11/99
Place of death:	Lille – France
Resting place:	Cimetière du Pont de Neuville – Tourcoing – France
Submitted by:	Suzy Chattuais (S.Chattuais@esc-lille.fr)

He was 3 months and 18 days. He had a Wonderful smile. He had eyes that were as big as the sun and just as curious.

Now, he is my little angel.

He was loved by all that met him, but especially his mom.

Now Sleep Little Angel and remember i Love you.

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Andrew Daniel Certuche ❀ Visitors & Flowers

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Jolissa Taylor (jojogotmojo@gmail.com)
22 April, 2011
Your story really touched my heart. I’m so sorry for the loss in your family. I know it has been some time now since his passing, but I know its something that never fades. I am a mother of two and I just couldn’t imagine the pain you all must have felt. It’s just one of those things where you really wish you could help the family but there is absolutely nothing you can do. Your story really has a strong impact and helps people really understand a portion of what you went through. I cry for you all today. God bless you.

Lorgardenia7@aol.com
21 April, 2010
May the family and Andrew find comfort with the Lord.

jillehodge@sbcglobal.net
21 April, 2007
I read with great sadness the tribute to Andrew Certuche in today’s newspaper. I did not know the story of little Andrew until today, although I have known his brothers for sometime now as a teacher at their school. I wish to send my thoughts and prayers to the Certuche family on this sad anniversary day. I know if Andrew had grown up to be anything like his brothers, he would have been an amazing little boy. I feel honored to have been a small part of the education of these wonderful students and wish I would have had the opportunity to get to know Andrew too. My own daughter was born the same year as Andrew…I look at her now and can’t even imagine thinking of life without her. My heart truly goes out to all of you remembering your loved one today.
Sincerely, Respectfully,
Jill Hodge

ineedafreak97@yahoo.com
26 April, 2006
I seen Andrew’s photo in the newspaper section for memorials just this friday. His picture grabbed me somehow, i had to find out more by coming to this website. after reading Andrew’s story, i was in tears. I am so sorry for your loss, i know those word mean nothing to you. the grief is will never go away.My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family thank you Stephanie

“Marisa” (marisa@emccollision.com)
12 February, 2003
I send my love and blessings to your whole family. May god bless your wonderful hearts at keeping his memory alive. I truly believe that if we remember those we have lost they truly never leave our presence. Memories and stories are the most preciouse things we have along with laughter. This is the greatest cure for a broken heart. It sounds as though he had one of the most loving families in the world & For the little time he was here he got to absorb so much love. That is something to be proud of and to hold on to forever. May god bless you with vivid memories of the preciouse Angel he has borrowed.

MoBabyFeli88@aol.com
19 January, 2003
Baby Brother this is you sis Felicia Yvonne Certuche I didnt realy get to meet you but i know who you were and you’ll always be in my hearts your Brother Lawrence and your sis Carinna says hi we love you andrew forever and always and we will always miss you and we will never forget you we love you and R.I.P LOVE, Lawrence Certuche Felicia Certuche AND Carinna Certuche

SIrsms3ji997ty@cs.com
21 June, 2000
These flowers are from the mother of a two year old in Connecticut. There are no words to ease your sorrow. May you find peace in the memory of a truly loved child.

“tomsuesummy” (tssummy@email.msn.com)
28 December, 2000
My Dear Little Angel, Andrew… Today is Day 982… that many days since I held you on my lap, kissed your soft cheek, and whispered “I Love you in your ear”….I am wishing you a Merry Christmas and a Wonderful New Year. Nine (9) days ago, Tues. Dec. 19, 2000, Day 973 since you left, your Sweet Mama gave birth to yet another Baby Brother for you, Andrew. His Name is Nicholas Marion Alexander Certuche. Born at 7:07 pm, weighing 7 lbs. 5 oz. and 20 inches long. That makes 4 brothers for you my Love. WOW! Five boys for your Mama and Daddy. Nicholas is probably the last one because of some health problems your Mama has had. Nicholas is beautiful and healthy and perfect. He looks alot like Samuel….especially when he was first born. Christopher (20 Months old) loves him and touches and kisses him alot. Samuel has always called Christopher “Baby” and still does. But he calls Nicholas “Nic-us”. Samuel is doing better with his speech, but is still a little behind his age group. But his vocabulary has increased alot in the last 3 months. We all try to help him pronounce words clearly. As you already know, your Mama and Daddy and all your brothers are doing very well, and we all had a wonderful Chistmas. We especially think about you, Baby, at Christmas time, Missing you most of all. You, Baby Andrew, are our Guardian Angel In Heaven. We Love and Miss You So. Good Bye til next time. Always and Forever My Love For You Grows… Gramma

27 July, 2000
My Dear Sweet Andrew….Yesterday, Tuesday July 26, 2000, was your 4th Birthday. Happy Birthday Baby. Your Mama and Mario and Samuel and Christopher came over yesterday on my lunch break, and Samuel sat on my lap while we came to this cemetery to visit you. Little Samuel, who is 2 1/2 yrs. old now, pointed at your picture and said, “Andrew, me…” He thinks he’s Andrew…he thinks he’s you. It’s a very hard concept for a 2 yr. old to comprehend…..not ever seeing you, but always talking about you. He only knows you by pictures, so in a way, to him you are a little different than his other brothers, Mario and Christopher. But I told him that you are his brother just like them, and that you are in Heaven with Jesus…. He will understand as he gets older. We all love you so much, and miss you everyday. We put a Memorial in yesterday’s newspaper for your birthday. It was the beautiful poem that your Aunt Nancy wrote and read at your Memorial Service. Your Mama’s due date for the new baby you sent us is December 22, 2000. It will be a Christmas baby. And as usual, she doesn’t want to find out if it’s a boy or a girl until it is born. After 4 boys, do you think it just might be a girl this time??? Right now you and Jesus are the only ones that know! And so, Sweet Baby, I leave these Flowers along with my Heart for you, and continue to Thank God for the Miracle He Sent us when He Sent You…..All My Love For a Million Eternities….Gramma

21 April, 2000
My Sweet Baby Andrew,
Today is the 2 year Anniversary of your death. We all miss you and love you so very much. I submitted a Memorial with your picture to the newspaper. Grampa and I did a beautiful one on the computer. Your Mama will send copies to all your relatives.
Today is Good Friday….the day we remember Jesus’ death on the Cross. What a Wonderful Day to share the anniversary of your death with the Savior, Jesus Christ. In Him, we have the Wonderful Hope of Eternal Life in Heaven…Of One Day Being With Jesus and with You, My Love! What cause for Celebration.
Your Mama found two rolls of film while she was cleaning last week. She got them developed…..and the film was 2 years old…..they were haunting pictures of you, Andrew….I got copies made and had them enlarged. Most of them were taken 14 days before you died, on your Grampa’s birthday, April 7th. I told your Mama that the pictures are like a Sweet Gift You and the Angels sent us so close to your two year Anniversary, April 21, 2000. There are a couple of pictures of your Sweet Daddy pushing you in a swing at the park. You weren’t too happy because it was your first and only ride on a swing….I love you, Andrew….I miss you so much.
Samuel is 2 1/2 yrs. old now and he is starting to talk more and more. He looks at your picture and can say your name as clear as I can. He loves you Andrew and misses you too. Christopher started walking about a week ago….he waddles like a duck….he will be 1 yr. old next week, April 29, 2000. I think Christopher will be talking early, he makes sound like words already….he likes to “talk”. Only you know what your little brother is saying!
I made your Mama and Daddy a blue and white baby blanket with a white satin label on it that says, “In Memory of Andrew D. Certuche”. I gave it to them today….I made your Daddy a nice picture of Samuel surrounded with pictures of you and him together…..April 21 is special for us. We think about you and take time to especially remember you.
Mario is going to Junior High next year….He misses you too Andrew…..he’s a Special Big Brother to Samuel and Christopher….I think he’s their self appointed protector…..He loves them a lot too…. I crocheted 9 Crib Blankets with your Name Label on them “In Memory of Andrew D. Certuche” and they left Wed. April 12, 2000 for Romania with a team from our church. They will be given to Pastor Ben, who our people are helping to build a little Village Church in Romania. He will give them to families who have a Baptism in their family. Your Blankets, made with Love and sent to Romania to Honor Your Short, but Very Meaningful Little Life and Death, are clear over on the other side of the world keeping some little children warm….I Have Shared You With The World, Andrew….You Will Never Be Forgotten…..You Will Always, Somehow be Remembered…..The World is a Better Place Because You Were Here Andrew…..I Will Always Love You….. Sing Me A Song Tonite, Andrew….I Long To Hear Your Sweet Voice Again…. All My Love For A Million Lifetimes….. Gramma And so, Sweet Baby, I leave you all these Beautiful, Colorful Flowers today….

21 October, 1999
My Angel Baby Andrew… Today is Thursday, October 21, 1999, it’s been exactly a year-and-a-half today since we lost your Beautiful Little Face from this earth… Today is Day 548 since I last got to hold your pudgy little body in my arms… 548 Days since I Kissed Your Sweet Cheek Good Bye For The Last Time… I’ve been thinking about you especially all week… I miss you, my Sweet “Papas”… My love grows for you more and more each day. I am missing you, Little Andrew… It was your little Brother Samuel’s 2nd Birthday the day before yesterday, Tuesday, October 19, 1999. He’s bright and beautiful. We’re all so thankful that you sent us your Beautiful Little Gift From Heaven… Another Angel… Christopher Nathaniel… who will be 6 months old the 29th of Oct. He’s the age Samuel was when you died… Samuel and Christopher play together and laugh together all the time. Christopher is gentle and mellow and always happy. Our Little Samuel is our Little Entertainer. He walks around with Mario’s big shoes on… or puts a hat on and walks around making all of us laugh. He’s so full of Life… Your Tender Little Spirit Lives on in Samuel… He is our link to you always… I will always Love You, My Angel… and Miss You So… and so until we are running down hills together and laughing together in the Sunshine of Heaven… I Give You All My Love For All Eternity… Gramma 🙂

cavusto@cybercable.fr
05 October, 1999
I would like to leave flowers for the little one! Being myself a mom, my heart goes out to you… then granny’s ones, that made me cry so sadly. May little Andrew be guarded by Angels. He knows you loved him so much.
Best regards
Vinya from Paris, France

“tomsuesummy” (tssummy@email.msn.com)
22 September, 1999
My Angel Andrew… Today is Wednesday, Sept. 22, 1999… and I am missing you so much today, Baby. The other day I was feeling that old feeling… impatience and grumpiness… and I knew what I needed to do… It always happens, everytime I need a good “Andrew Cry”. My thoughts kept returning to you no matter what I was doing. But I kept putting it off, because I knew if I faced it, I would have to do the difficult and painful task of “grief work”…. Sometimes I just want to run away from it. But I know that it must be done as part of the healing process…. I pulled out some of your clothes and your little shoes, and the cup you were just starting to drink from (the one with your little teeth marks all over it)… and I spent much needed time with you Andrew… it was a soul-cleansing… I felt “refreshed” afterward… And so I cried… I love you more with each passing day. I have been counting the days since you died… Today is Day 519. I love you Baby… Give Jesus a Big Hug for me and for your Mama & Daddy and Mario, Samuel and Christopher… All My Love For a Million Lifetimes… Gramma 🙂

25 August, 1999
My Dear Angel Andrew… I am missing you today Baby… Your Little Brother, Samuel, will be 22 months old this Sunday. When he comes over to our house, Andrew… Little Samuel pulls out the Little yellow Duckie Rocker that was yours, and he sits on it and rocks… He’s getting a little big for it though. You rode on it when you were about 17-18 months old. I keep it in my bedroom. It helps me to feel close to you… Baby Brother, Christopher, is getting b-i-g. He’s beautiful, just like you Baby. Big Brother, Mario, starts school in a couple of weeks… 6th grade this year… He Loves You Lots, Baby… Mama & Daddy miss you everyday. I give you all My Hugs and Kisses… Forever and Always I will Love You… Gramma 🙂

“LIZ A DAZIO” (MOONPRINCESS70@prodigy.net)
13 August, 1999
as i sit here and read you love i am grateful that i still have my son who we have nearly lost so many times. i’m grateful that when he does go i’ll know why, because of his syndrome. i feel for you and cry for your lost. you and your family are in my prayers.

Andrew Daniel Certuche ✵ 1996-1998


Name at birth:	Andrew Daniel Certuche
Date of birth:	26/07/96
Place of birth:	Fremont, CA USA
Date of death:	21/04/98
Place of death:	Fremont, CA USA
Resting place:	Fremont, CA USA
Submitted by:	Susan Summy (tssummy@email.msn.com)

On a warm, early spring evening, April 21, 1998, my little 21 month old grandson, Andrew, was hit by a car and killed. Our family was traumatized by Andrew’s sudden and unexpected death. July 26, 1996, Andrew was born 2 months premature, barely weighing 4 lbs. He spent the first 2 months of his life in the hospital, learning all the things he should have learned in the womb. He had to be fed from a feeding tube because he was too young to know how to suck. His respiratory and digestive systems were not fully developed. Andrew was a little fighter and clung to life, giving his family much joy…endearing himself to each of us. God was good (isn’t He Always?…). Andrew thrived and grew more everyday. When he finally got to go home 8 weeks later, he went home on a heart monitor. It’s very common for “Preemies” to forget to breathe, so their hearts can stop beating. We had a couple of scares with his breathing, but all in all he did very well and was gradually weaned off the heart monitor. On this unforgettable spring evening, Andrew was run over by a car backing out of the driveway in front of his home. There was no negligence involved. Andrew’s family were out there with him. But it happened so fast, no one had a chance to save him. Andrew was Life-Flighted in a helicopter to the hospital, but when we arrived, we were taken into a small room and told that our Precious Little Baby Boy had not made it. He had extensive head injuries and we were later to find out that he had died instantly. This truly was a terrible tragedy that literally threw us all into a numb state of shock and an unshakable feeling of Disbelief. The driver of the car was devastated and in shock. In the middle of our own horror and grief, we all assured him that we didn’t blame him…it wasn’t his fault. My heart went out to him….It just happened too quickly for anyone to have a chance to react. It could have happened to any one of us. I pray for him often, for this is an awful thing to have to bear for the rest of his life. My daughter, Denise spent most of the time with her little son at the hospital, trying to say “good-bye” to the Little One who had fought so hard to survive just 21 months earlier. Andrew had bouncy little curls and had never had a haircut. Denise, looking bedraggled and lost came back into the room where we all were waiting, held out 3 little bottles in her hand and said, “Mom, I just gave Andrew his first haircut..” It was the most unbelievably sad thing that I ever have or probably ever will experience. Now…not only was I grieving for Andrew, but my heart was Broken for my daughter and grandson, Mario. The sad days that followed seemed like a dream…a numb blur. How unreal and somewhat twisted this whole thing was. And in the midst of all this, swirling around my head, was this total and absolute feeling of Disbelief that had attached itself to me like a balloon tied to a string around my waist. No matter where I went or what I did…there it was hanging on to me…DISBELIEF! The clinging feeling that “this isn’t really happening. There’s a logical explanation for what is really going on here…” Because Andrew had been taken from us so suddenly and unexpectedly, we were suffering quite severely from not being able to say “good-bye” to him as we might have had if he had died from an illness. This kind of a death snatches your loved one so brutally and unmercifully from your hands that the family is left with an unusual level of Shock and Grief and a Profound Sense of “Unfinished Business”… One minute he’s eating dinner with the family and running around in his diaper playing with his brother, and an hour later…He’s Gone… How can the human psyche possible comprehend and absorb this unnatural and bizarre twist of events and cope with the reality of it, and not even have a say in it???…All our choices and options were taken away from us. No one asked us if we were ready for this to take place. No one asked us if we were ready to say “good-bye” to Andrew….We weren’t given a decision to make. We weren’t given any options….We weren’t given any hope that maybe he would recover… It was just….BOOM!!! He’s Gone…now deal with it!! Case Closed! We had a short period of time to see him and say “Good-bye” privately as a family. I combed his beautiful curls with my fingers for the last time. I put my finger inside his chubby little fingers. I felt his soft little cheek that I had kissed so many times…for the last time…I brushed his long curly eyelashes with my finger… I kissed his sweet face for the last time…And now, quietly and gently we said “Good-bye” to our Precious Little Boy. It is hard to express the level of loneliness that I felt that day. Denise is the bravest young woman that I will ever have the honor of knowing. I Love Her with a New Love. The hardest death to comprehend and accept is the death of a child. But when that child is a baby and hasn’t had a chance to live yet, the Grief goes far deeper and stings like a whip. Andrew had just cut another tooth two days before he died…In my finite mind, these things were just incomprehensible. There are so many things about Grief that are the same for all of us who are “wounded grievers”. This thing called grief is an ominous thing. We can’t always recognize it as grief, but it comes in many packages. Sometimes it packs a wallop and knocks us off our feet. At other times it shows up in impatience or misplaced anger. We wonder why we are having such out-of-control feelings sometimes…And Grief never really leaves us, it just changes its disguise and moves around subtly, in and out of our lives. It may even seem to have vanished for a period of time, leaving us to wonder if we’re “all well” now… But I think that if the pain, if the Grief should ever leave completely and never come back…then I would miss its Presence. And that, to me would be an even greater loss… The whole community was touched by Andrew’s death. The Church was full for his Memorial Service. The outpouring of love and prayers and support held us up as we gave our Precious Baby over into the Loving Hands of Jesus. Jesus has never been more real and powerful and comforting, and His Presence so real than when I have had to let go of the ones that mean so much to me, and release them back to the Heavenly Father from Whom they came. That’s when He gives us His Unspeakable Peace that Goes Beyond All Our Understanding. It’s that very Special Peace of God, the God of All Comfort, that we only experience at those times when we are Releasing…Turning over…Letting go…Giving up to Him. My Grief was so great when Andrew died. Because he was snatched from us so suddenly and tragically, I was feeling very “disconnected” from him. There was still so much “Unfinished Business…” I had a compelling need to keep him included in our family and not to forget about him. So I began a Journal, “Letters To Andrew”. This gave me an outlet for my grief. I shared with him the depth of my sadness and the JOYS too. I “talk” to Andrew in my Journal. I tell him about the things that are going on in his family. I talk to Jesus in my Journal. The following is my first letter to Andrew, June 2, 1998, Day 42 after his death: My Dear Sweet Andrew, This Journal of letters to you is more for me than for you. It’s but yet another stepping stone along the painful path of the Healing of My Broken Heart. I write to you with all the Love of a Lifetime that was so brutally ripped from us the night you died. This is going to be a very difficult, but much needed, Labor of love. Sometimes I will tell you Happy things that bring a smile to both our faces, and there will be times that I will have all I can do to keep from drowning these pages in what seems like my Never Ending Tears. There will be times when I am in a Lighthearted, jovial mood, and I will bounce you on my leg, up and down, and you will smile and laugh with your little “button” mouth with the corners turned up. And I will sing to you and you will make me Laugh. And there will also be times when I talk to you on these pages when I feel Melancholy and Sad. And those times will be reflected here too. And you will have to press your Sweet Soft Cheek next to mine and Climb up into my lap and Hold me tight and Comfort me, or I Shall Surely die of a Broken Heart…. Today is Tuesday. Exactly 6 weeks since you died. It’s now 7:01 pm. You died at 7:37 pm, Tuesday, April 21, 1998. And from that night on, I have never been the same. I’m Missing You so tonite Andrew. I fear I will never be happy again. My Heart aches for you. There’s a heavy pain inside my chest. It is the aching emptiness and loneliness I feel without you. I am having a hard time writing this first entry… I cry for you…My Heart Longs for you. If I live to be 80 or 90, I will read these letters to you, and my Heart Shall Ache and I Shall Miss You as if You Left Only Yesterday. But today it’s all still so fresh and new that at some moments I feel that I cannot bear to be without You another minute. I see Your Sweet Little Face and Your Golden Curls all around me in pictures. Everything I do or say or think or feel is So Painful. Life Hurts so much right now for me My Dear Sweet Andrew…Jesus will have to Rock Me To Sleep Tonite. “Rock me Jesus, soft…and gentle…Rock me Jesus, so Tender tonite. Sweet Jesus quiet my spirit, slow my breathing…Assure Me of Your Presence…I must Climb Up into Your Lap Sweet Savior, and lay my head against Your Chest, Close to Your Heart…And You, My Father, Hold me close and Rock me…Rock me…Until I fall Asleep In Your Arms…for I am missing My Baby Andrew tonite… Our Beautiful Baby Who Is In Your Wonderful Presence now… “Rock Me…Hush, Hush…Sleep, Sleep… Jesus and Andrew are Rocking Me to Sleep Tonite… My spirit is now quiet, My Longing Heart Is Satisfied…And I am at Peace One More Nite.” O, My Sweet Baby Andrew, I have so much to tell you. So much has happened since Jesus took you. I’m writing to you because I want you to know all about your brothers and your Grampa and your Momma and Daddy. I felt like I was losing touch with You. You were Gone! POOF!! Just Like That! And I couldn’t bear the thought of You not being included in our lives anymore. So talking to you in these letters sort of “reconnects” you to us. And this Journal once again includes you… brings you back to us in a sense, to all of us who Love You. Please don’t think me morbid if I sometimes talk to you about your death and the things that happened afterwards. It is a Catharsis for me. That means that talking to you in this way helps to heal my Broken Heart. I have a deep compelling need to include you, My Precious Andrew, in the rest of our lives. I can’t seem to bring myself to say Good Nite to you, but I feel better now, and Jesus has Rocked Me and given me His Peace….So My Love….Good Nite…I Will Always Love You…. Forever and Always, Gramma And as I approached my first Christmas without him I wrote: Tuesday, Dec. 22, 1998 6:36 pm, Day 245 My Dear Sweet Andrew, O, My Baby, how I miss you so today. I could barely make it to work today. I almost turned around and came home. What a horrible struggle I had all day long. I thought I would be the one to go sailing through the Christmas Season cheering everyone along the way… But the old demons of death keep dancing all around me, taunting me, until I come apart at the seams. I recognized this morning, the old familiar pattern of grief. Fits of rage for seemingly no apparent reason that explode into uncontrollable crying spells. I need some quiet time, some sacred privacy to cope with my grief and unpredictable wave of emotions. I only hold them in for so long, and then they come gushing out all over everyone at the most unexpected times. I’m so glad I have you to talk to Andrew, because now you know and understand everything. I need your Sweetness to Rock me tonite. O, how I miss you Baby Andrew… I feel as devastated tonite as I did the nite you died. It’s New All Over Again. The Ache is fresh again…I’ve been thrown back to square one…I have to Learn to Walk All Over Again… Sing to me Andrew…Sit on my Lap and Hold Me Tight for I am Just A Little Girl Again, Andrew…so vulnerable, so Unsure, so Needy, so Scared…Rock Me, Baby…Rock me and Sing to Me…What New Songs do You Sing these days? What New Colors are in Your World Andrew??… Draw me a Picture Tonite…I Need to Feel Your Closeness…Breathe on Me Andrew, with Your Sweet Smelling Breath…press Your Soft Cheek next to mine… Sing to Me with Your Little Angel Voice that we got to hear for such a short time. At this Moment I feel that Eternity will not be long enough to spend with you…But it will…it will…THEN! Then! In Heaven it will be Satisfying and Will ease the Longing in My Heart For You. Because, Sweet Baby, My Sweet Andrew Baby, Heaven will make everything okay again… And I will Hold Your Pudgy Little Hand and we will Dance through Meadows, and Roll down Hills, and Wade in Cool Waters, and Catch Butterflies and Sing…Sing… Sing! You and I Andrew, will do All the Things Together THEN, that we never got to do Here…. I’m not afraid to die anymore, Andrew. For You will be the First One to Greet Me THERE! Maybe God will let You come down with the Angels to Carry My Soul to Heaven! What a Thrill that would be! Because of You Andrew, I have the Courage to die…but better yet, I Have the Courage to Live! You have done Both and so shall I…. I know now what God means when He says “There is Nothing Greater Than Love…” For I have Loved You Since the Foundation of Creation and Love is So Deep and So Wide and So Boundless, that as I Loved You Then, and as I Love You Now, I, too, Shall Love You with an Even Greater Love For All Eternity. That’s what You and I have, Andrew….ALL ETERNITY! TIME WITH NO END… And You will never be snatched from me again…. You have been Rocking Me Little One, And for Tonite, I am at Peace… From Creation Through ETERNITY I Will Always Love You… You have Eased the Ache In My Heart Tonite. I Am Eternally Yours, Gramma Andrew’s short life and unexpected death is teaching each of us many good things about life and death and God’s Love for us and His Great Purpose for Each of Our Lives. Andrew’s Life and Death Have NOT Been In Vain. And it is because I know the Savior Personally that I have the Complete Assurance that I will One Day See My Little Andrew Again, and Live with Him Forever….That is the Blessed Assurance and Hope that gives me the Strength and Courage to Go On Living. It won’t be long and I Will See Him Again. I am so Thankful that God Gave Andrew to us for 2 extra months because of his early birth. God Is Good…His Compassions Never Fail…”Though weeping may come for a night, JOY Cometh in The Morning.” Psalm 30:5 I am growing stronger in all the weak places of my Life because of the various Life Experiences, Tragedies and Joys that I have Encountered Along the Way. I know that each trial makes me a little Stronger to Bear the next one. I have Learned the Goodness and Kindness of Friends, Family and even Strangers Who Care. I’ve Learned too, that I can Survive the Deepest Grief that my Heart can bear…and not just survive it but be Victorious Over It, because Jesus Loves Me With A Love That Won’t Let Go… None of us ever wants to face these kinds of Sorrows and Losses, but we can only REALLY know the Savior intimately when we have had to Walk With Him through the Valley… putting one foot in front of the other and Trusting His Heart. I don’t want to walk there again…no one does…But I Know that I will have to again someday. And Now I KNOW that I Can…not just because I’ve been there…But Because I’ve Been There With The King….! Andrew Daniel… The Littlest Angel I Love You… Gramma

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Justin Gabriel Catuiza ❀ Visitors & Flowers

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2 October 2018

Miss you mihijo

Esther

25 June 2018

My heart missing you always. Love John.

John Grijalva <Bloodstonestears@gmail.com>

27 December 2017

Miss you. Hold in my heart.

Esther

16 May 2016

Missing you. God be with you.

John GRIJALVA

21 February 2015

Just sayin hi.

Love you Justin thinking of you all the time i know you still listen to me when I talk to you about journey in this Life Im so glad you still live in my spirit. … Love tio

ADRIAN CATUIZA <adrianjcat@gmail.com>

4 August 2009

I miss you mijo……… so much, you are always in my thoughts, your voice is in my head, your laugh, i hear you mijo, i hope you know how much i love you, and miss you, my heart aches for you mijo i wish you were here with us still cuz theres a place in my life that is only meant for you. When i close my eyes i can see you, i can spend time with you my memories that you gave me are precious to me, i hold you close to my heart mijo JUSTIN I LOVE YOU always

Tia minty

7 June, 2009

Happy Birthday to you. Happy Birthday to you. Hapy birthday dear Justin. Happy Birthday to you. I love you and miss you so much. There goes another year.

Love, Mom

Esther F. Catuiza <CATNCO@msn.com>

April 9, 2009

Dear Tio Juistin,
I miss you so much.The memories that I have of you I held to my heart dearly. Love Lexie

07 June, 2008
Happy birthday love you and miss you.

29 October, 2007
I love you son and miss you dearly.

ramboqcs@cox.net
09 June, 2007
Family — love of family.
You are and always will be an example of love of family. Thank you for that.
tia cousin
Amory

08 June, 2006
Happy, happy, celebration of a wonderful kid—-it was so wonderful—your love from your family will never be forgotten.
your tia-cousin
Amory Ramirez

CATNCO@msn.com
07 June, 2006
Happy Birthday Justin. I miss you every day. Justin this is dad, you are with me every day. I miss everything about you, this will always be a important day in my life. I remember everything about the day you were born, as i said before, i’ll love you till the end of time and until there is no more me. Love You son, Dad. Love you son Mom.

“Fernando Granados” (granados31@msn.com)
25 December, 2005
Justin- You are greatly missed. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t remember your sillliness and your matter of fact ways. Although you are not here I know you are not far, for you are a part of many of us. – Love you “BIG GAL” aka “Part big Foot”

“Esther F. Catuiza” (CATNCO@msn.com)
07 June, 2005
We were all here son on your birthday. Thinking of the wonderful things that happen when you were among us. Mom

Happy Birthday Justin. I miss you every day of my life son. I love you son. I will see again. Love Mom

“Gayle Ortiz” (ktulah@hotmail.com)
10 June, 2003
Thought about on your “30th” birthday. Your smile and love for family. Think of you always mijo. Love Tia Gayle

Esther F. Catuiza (CATNCO@msn.com)
07 June, 2003
Happy Birthday Justin we all were here Dad, me, Andre, Lexie, and Andie. Missing you so much. Love you son.

Esther Catuiza (catnco@webtv.net)
07 May, 2003
I miss you so much. You will be in my heart and mind always.

“TIM MORRIS” (t-bmorris@msn.com)
15 October, 2002
I was recently reflecting on some “funny” times that were shared with you and I just wanted to say that whenever I think of you, I always end up smiling, or even laughing out loud. I know that you are there, with me/us, smiling and laughing when we remember “funny” moments with you. Miss you and love you, Berna

“PRIMO B CATUIZA” (primoc@prodigy.net)
18 August, 2002
From time to time I will go to the cemetary to visit and sort out things I have on my mind. I was on the internet today and found this page entitled Catuiza. You are missed by everyone here and we’ll all meet again one day. Until that day comes, know we all love and miss you.
Love, Tio Toto

Esther Catuiza (catnco@webtv.net)
10 February, 2002
Time doesn’t stop son but my heart still feels the pain of missing you. I love you Justin and I always will.

“Elisabetta Scatarzi” (bettascatarzi@libero.it)
16 October, 2001
he seemed to be so young… a thought from Italy

Esther Catuiza (catnco@webtv.net)
06 August, 2001
My dearest son you’ve been on my mind constantly. Though I can’t see you, you’re with me always. It’s so hard. But I want you to know I love you and miss you dearly.

“Gayle Ortiz” (ktulah@hotmail.com)
15 April, 2001
Dear Justin,
Just leaving a few words to tell you I miss you and your always in my heart and mind. Thank you for being my closest nephew and best friend. You made me so very happy that we grew up together and we were there for each other no matter what I always told you that. Always until the end. Miss you much. I can always hear your laughter even though you are not hear physicaly but in mind. Until we meet again mijo.
Love Your Tio,
Adrian Jeff Catuiza

Esther Catuiza (catnco@webtv.net)
13 April, 2001
My dearest, dearest darling. Time is ever so slow.Nothings the same without you. Days continue to present themselves to me, and with all that it has to offer your the biggest part of them.Your smile, your laughter, your love. Know this my darling….. I LOVE YOU, your loved every passing minute. My heart is forever yours to eternity. Life is most difficult, I stand alone. Your memories are what keep me going. I look to hear your voice, your warmth, your funny little sayings. Sometimes I think Im crazy and catch myself talking as you are there. I guess those are things love is made of. I remember what you have always told me and to this day it still rings true. I am forever yours until we are together again . Sending you love and kisses. Yours Truly, Me.

“Rachel Savala” (rfps99@excelonline.com)
26 March, 2001
Justin, We love you and think of you often. We miss you very much. May God bless your Mom, Dad, Andre and his family. XXOO Frank, Rachel, Frank Jr and Phil

Marta Frausto (marta.frausto@dot.ca.gov)
23 March, 2001
Justin: You are in my heart and my soul forever. With much love and affection, your Tia.

Esther Catuiza (catnco@webtv.net)
16 March, 2001
Justin,You are on my mind and in my heart all of the time. Son, there is a big emptiness without you.I still look for you all the time.I love Justin… And that will be until the end of time. Love Daddy

“Gayle Ortiz” (ktulah@hotmail.com)
11 March, 2001
Hey Cousin, It’s me Nene! I wrote this note to let you know that I miss you alot and that I will never forget you. It seems like yesterday you were over here at grandpas kicking back with us laughing and chillin because it was the thing to do.But knowing your up there with grandpa and grandma and our Lord Jesus Christ makes me and the family feel alot better so take care and remember that you will always be my favorite cousin that I could tell you anything and thank you for that because you can’t tell every body every thing.well sunshine I gots to go. Love you always and forever. Your Cousin Irene

“Raymond Catuiza” (catuiza@etcrier.net)
03 March, 2001
Justin thank you for bringing so much love and happpiness into my life and all of our family’s life. You are truely a gift from god. I miss and love you dearly

“The Ortiz Family” (ktulah@hotmail.com)
18 December, 2000
It’s almost Christmas and many memories of you flood my mind. You are missed a lot my dear Justin and I know your mom, dad and brother must be feeling your absence tremendously right now. You are not fogotten my mijo.
Love,
Tia Gayle & Family

“Gayle Ortiz” (ktulah@hotmail.com)
13 November, 2000
My Dearest Justin,
It’s been almost a year already that you became ill and I have thought of you often. Oldies on the radio always put a smile (and sometimes tears to my eyes) on my face. My prayer is that you sit with your Grandpas & Grandmas up in heaven where it is beautiful for everyone. You are missed so much. Your laugh, your beautiful smile and your loving ways. But all of this lives in our hearts, always will.
Tia Gayle & Family

“Etcrier” (catuiza@etcrier.net)
09 November, 2000
The love you shared during our lives was tremendous. There is never a day that passes by without thoughts of you in my head. You always brought so much joy to everybody that surrounded you. You gave us all something to keep with us in our hearts, that words cannot express, and I thank you. You will be cherished in everybodies memories until the end of time. I love you very much,
Raymond Catuiza

“Kirsen Catuiza” (kcmrshollywood@Sierra.com)
28 September, 2000
Just a quick We miss you and Love you. Love Tio Art, Tia Kirsen and Nathan

Esther Catuiza (catnco@webtv.net)
24 September, 2000
Isn’t it nice even if time passes, people don’t forget you. But yet recall moments they treasure most about you. The never ending love you gave them. Something special will forever be left in our hearts for you no matter our sorrow.

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